Fate

30th November'09

Mom's been complaining about her dentures ever since she came home, the machining filing has made her lower denture lose. Making chewing almost an impossible task without coming off. How unlucky can I get to get locked outside my own house with no one at home. Phone dropped yesterday by accident even after my phone is already partly spoil. With mute mode when talking to people, I just can't hear a shit as to what their saying. 500 free messages is going to be soon gone in a few days, mass messaging friends.

In school, during a 3hours break time due to class test and our class is cancelled. Mates decided to give Tampines Mall a visit as to past time. Had fun playing, daring each other to do things. Successfully sabotaged a friend by getting my friend who is the loser to a game to take number from the girl. Time moves on fast and soon, we started taking gay and stupid pictures for fun. Played again and lost. Had to go up to a girl and tell her that her pants should be the colour of my friend's bag.

With my mates following behind, I gathered up courage to tell her but was laughing my head off and told her in a while during my laughter. Words can't be heard clearly and probably she thinks I'm mad. Couldn't wait to walk away from her when I finished my sentence. Fun day at school and back at home...

Came to my doorsteps and to realize I forgot to bring keys and calling to mom was a no need to even try. Siblings and dad is working their heads off with me messaging my sister and realize mom's phone battery is dead. Leaving me no choice but to sit at staircase alone and my thoughts starts to wonder.

2days ago while working, seems to be a fate arrangement that I met a girl so familiar in which she finds me familiar too. But it was also decided that the link between us was lost. Borned as to what a cat's instinct, I can't helped but to keep thinking of where we met before but to no avail. As I continued on texting her, slowly, my senses, I kinda forget how she looked like. And slowly I think we never even have met before.

Fate arrange stuff and we make it happen. It was fate that I have met stanley that had totally changed my entired life. Who knows what I'll become if I didn't know him.

Living a life as to what it is now is my own decision, arrangement was made, chances were missed and future is for me to decide. Living in the present is what I live for.

Simplest is the simplest way

28th November'09

Here I'm speaking from my own experience of my 18years of life. Though it may not seem long enough but it is for me long enough to understand.

How far would one go to obtain a understanding so important to that one self that he/she finds enlightenment in it? Understanding something is important in life but yet when one finds the enlightenment in understanding, one will go for more. I believe that though it's important, somethings are meant not to be exposed or understand. It's like how God, we can never understand it. It's like how wind, trees and every natural things exist we can never understand it.

We, humans have a complex mind and it's because of it, that we overlooked the smallest details. Ask yourself this question, are you happy with your current life? For some, yes but that is because they don't aim high and living the simplest is just happiness. For many, answer is no for them. They just want better to be happier.

How can we not be happy when we humans have basically everything we need to survive? Imagine yourself lost in an island alone, you know rescue won't be here but just surviving with the basic needs is just enough. More than enough to be happy.

Misunderstanding may occured reading my post. But understand this that a opportunity arrive is the correct time to climb. So just accept where you are now, what you have now and only go further when you know you can.

Think of what you want, go for that, be happy, have fun, experience life and this is what we are in the world for.

Worth it? You decide

25th November'09

Maybe this is going to be the few of my very last post. Monitor of my computer has been twitching a bit violently ever since yesterday. Today I had my 2.4km but although on the result, it may seem that I passed, I actually failed. Teacher cheated by letting us running 4 x 400m and for the remainder 2 rounds, she add 3mins in. Just the 4 rounds, I had a roughly 10min timing already. There wasn't even a chance that I can pass. To some, adding in 3mins for the final 2 was a bit unworthy since their timing can do better. But majority like that idea. Felt a bit uncomfortable lying to my ownself.

I passed, I passed but when in reality, you failed dude! While on the running track, a fight broke out between 2 mates. During running, while on the 3rd lap, 2 jokers over took us including the fighter. While overtaking, they swing my arm as well as the fighter's arm. The second one came and did the same but with more force. This time the force impacted the fighter's ipod to fall on the floor breaking his temper as he lunge a punch directly into the second dude's face.

Luckily miss a bit as it brushes pass his face but a few more and his was on the floor. Kicks were then follow, everything happened so fast, but luckily classmates running pass help to stop the fight.

I think it was a fight not worth it. Though admitting that the joker's jokes or pranks sometime went a bit far but still ipod falling on to a rubber mat and at worst, it only suffer a few scratches, he got beaten up for that? How ridiculous. His punches had let me saw his anger, not in the ipod but with his jokes, in the eyes, I had enough. So it was more of a chance to bash him up good. That is what I think, probably most's gonna agree with me if they had seen it. Seriously speaking, I don't really like the joker. His joke irritates people and even when they get angry, he continue with more scarastic remarks. Pretty much like me last time.

New song on my blog, though I can't pretty much understand what it means or what the hell is the singer's singing. It have sentimental value to me. Like how people have this feeling when they hear some songs.

Updates

20th November'09

It has been a while since my last post, more than a week ago if I'm not wrong. Quite many things happened and mostly, I wanted to blog about it but in the end, I just couldn't find the time to do it.

Few days ago was my nafa test and was a bit disappointed by the result judging that I, after all practice parkour. But after knowing some of the 5 stations's result, I know that I have not enough training yet. What got me to this state I'm in now is just my good techniques.

Pull up, a standard one of just 11. I think, I'm the second one in class. A classmate pull off a 20 not standard pull up. Well teacher doesn't care but still, I must stay true to myself. Sit-up, I think I top my class with 53 sit ups. Sit and reach, as usual, always a C. Many cheated but yet again, I must stay truthful. Standing board jump of 251cm and again second in class. Shuttle run, a timing of 9.83s with a bad start, a trip and many slides. Didn't bother to try second time since I already got A. And lastly next week, I be taking 2.4km and I think I will fail miserably.

Just yesterday, me and a few friends decided to play a game and loser have to get a girl's number in which we pick the target. I was lucky to lose first and asked a pretty one. Later on the game, it got really bastard as the loser were asked to ask a fat girl for number. Quite thrilling but still really bastard. This game is surprisingly boost my self-confidence and today, I asked for a girl's number which I expected won't get it. But asked for the thrill anyway.

Went out later in the night to slack with some friends and at the same time, copy some notes for my own reference. Shall end this post, lazy to continue

Just some of my thoughts

11th November'09

When one did something bad to you, wheather physically or verbally, you want something to befall on them and when that happens, you feel 'shiok' and breathe a sigh of happiness that they got their just desert. That is precisely what happened a few weeks ago when one of them got his. Talking bad things about what I did, I was hoping he got what he deserve.

He was carried around like a fool by a few who he thinks he feel inferior to them and tossed right into the bin. Though he was smiling but I know that smile was to make it look like they were having fun when he actually had a look on his face that he isn't enjoying it at all. I'm still actually quite sick of some Singaporean that they can't accept us. Unless they try it theirselves, they never understand and never will. Saw a few documentary on it and even the reporters theirselves, don't understand but at least they respect.

Few days ago, a outcast in the class gave me attitude when I asked him a question. Though for quite a few times, I have laughed at him for some bastard jokes my mates made on him. I don't say bastard thing to him cos I understand that this kind of peeps are pretty sensitive. Just today, he talk to me and I was pretty much kind enough to give him a response as to let him know, I treat him nice. Can't blame him though since he always get verbally insulted. I really pity him but maybe it's just because of his looks.

His white mix black messy hair with unshave mostache, probably make him look like he is a lazy person plus, he loves attention. Understandable as to why he seek so much attention. Lack of attention given to him and always deem invisible in class and coincidentally, he is my neighbour's NS mate. Another coincidence is that my brother actually beat up his little brother during primary school. How coincident is that?

My neighbour told me that he lack of friends and often get bullied even while serving NS. Both fat dude but at least my neighbour's look still refreshing. With clean shave mostache and a sense of average fashion. Though occasionally, I do seek attention but will hold myself back, cos I know I ain't that lack of attention compare to many of my friends.

Just had a refreshing haircut, a new hairstyle as I'm very tired of keeping long hair. Going out with a friend to watch a movie. :) Ja ne!

Working in Saizeriya

4th November'09

My work life have now taken over my entertaining life. With nothing to blog about since nothing worth the mention is to be post here. I shall talk about my working place. Well, already have in mind who I wanted to condemn. Been in that restaurant for nearly 2months and I have become closer to some. But there is this one guy whom I seriously dislike. The chef, Mr Ng. He is still single for his age and his like already near 40? He doesn't talk to guys and is very friendly with girls in the restaurant. Kinda pervert I must say. I have never exchange a conversation with him before.

The kitchen staffs told he not to critizie about his food as he doesn't like. So I assume he is someone with very high confident that his food is fucking nice but in reality, it taste normal, average or sometimes below average. Eversince he introduce the 'Squid Ink Spa' to the menu. Many have ordered it and many didn't finished it. Guess this is how bad his spaghetti is. Serious enough, I think someone need to tell him or at least pinpoint out his bad point or if not this continue, many will grow to hate him.

We have many managers in our restaurant which make the system mess up. Politics as to who should manage what is already starting up. Mr Ng, this guy held such a big position and thinks he doesn't need to help out beside cooking as and when he likes. Please come on, even my japanese boss sometimes helped out with clearing tables and what he do? Stand around looking like he is the damn boss.

Almost everyone do their part in restaurant but only he sits/stands around talking and going out for walks. And he fucking get paid for doing that? Seriously, pissed me off watching it. I think the boss should just fire him and hired a new chef. Losing him doesn't mean much since his food kinda suck.

I shall end this post and go to sleep LOL

Packed

2nd November'09

Packed schedule, didn't know I will be so busy since I started working. No time to train at all. Just totally fuck up but felt an increase in leg power from the long duration of standing and walking around during work. Monday and tuesday, full day out with school and work at night. Wednesday, school for half a day with project to catch up after school. Thursday, school for whole day. Friday, school for half day and appointment for my skin treatment. Saturday, working full day, though only sometimes. Sunday, either I have something on or I company my bro out.

It is just so packed, hardly anytime to train at all. Though wednesday is the only day, I just seem too tired to even go out and train. Skipped school today due to diahhorrea and working in the evening later. Yesterday went for a zombie filming thing for someone's project. Will upload the pictures in facebook once I got the pictures from the photographer. Couldn't act well as the director wanted me to be piss off. But I just darn can't do it, no one or it's probably just my mind that I will never get piss off or really angry at someone.

No one have so far in my 18 years of life make me feel super piss. Had fun filming the things and did some simple jumps but because of the height, it had me for a while preparing before making the jump. School has been really tired for me and now, I think I'm gonna go for a small nap before I go for work.